My History with Self-Shipping

I haven't updated this blog in a while... I've just been extremely exhausted. Ever since I graduated from high school in May, I have done nothing with my life, except bedrot on corporate-owned slop apps like Instagram. I guess it's just seasonal depression. And, I don't really have anything to do, since all of my in-person friends are still in school. I'm the odd one out, and I don't even feel like an adult. I still feel like a teenager, and I still am, technically. I don't really consider eighteen-year-olds to be adults... If I were twenty, that'd be a different story. Anyway, life update over. Let's get into the subject at hand... Self-shipping! I have been self-shipping for as long as I can remember. My earliest F/O (fictional other, like a significant other, but fictional) was Nonny from Bubble Guppies. I used to pretend he was huge and buff and slept in my bed with me. I hate admitting that. I was five (5), okay? I had this idea in my mind that me, a little ginger girl, should only date ginger boys. So, I thought that way until I was homeschooled. I'll get into that aspect of my life some other day... My second-earliest memory of self-shipping was as I mentioned before, around the time I was homeschooled. I played a lot of DS games. My mom bought me an R4 card loaded with games to play for my DS lite, and one game was a little title known as "Pop Cutie! Street Fashion Simulation". I'll dive into this some other day, too, but for now I want to talk about Grant. Grant is an interesting character, and I thought he was the hottest man alive when I was seven (7). Grant is a rival character in Pop Cutie, with the rivalry being about who can get the most fashion sales. Grant wasn't like the other characters, though. He was spacey, out of touch with reality, and always had his mind focused on technology and nothing else. And surprisingly, my child brain always kept him in-character. Funnily enough, my self-indulgences with Grant are the reason why I make OCs and write stories like I do now. My first ever original character was a fan character for Pop Cutie, whomst I shipped with Grant. I do not remember her name, but she had hot pink hair in long, Miku-style pigtails, all-white eyes that were glowing, and I think she also had angel wings? She also had an evil twin with lime green and bright yellow hair, who had a team of evil twins of the other Pop Cutie rivals. My character even had a robot version of herself! If I can ever find my old sketchbooks from my childhood, I'll make a follow-up to this entry, but I doubt I will, since I threw them away when I was about eight (8). This specific self-insert, and Grant, were part of a hero team or something like that, and that was kinda where I went off the deep end, but I mean, I was an imaginative kid. Who can blame me? I mean, I fixated over Grant and my character for about 3 years of my life. Funnily enough, though, Pop Cutie is still one of my biggest interests, even after 12 years. I don't like Grant in that way anymore, Professor Rabbit is more my speed, but I still really enjoy Grant as a character, and he is so funny and charming! My friend, Scetileaf, though, is a HUGE fan of Grant, so he hasn't been forgotten! Check Sceti out, BTW. When I was eight (8), I set Pop Cutie aside for a while, because I found something else to be completely insane over for another very long portion of my childhood... Animal Jam! I'm gonna make this part super quick, because I don't have much to say about it, but I had a FAT crush on Greely and we were married with kids that I adopted in the pillow room. That is all I will say. If you know, you know. Now let's all give a hand to ten-year-old (10) Archie! She got LittleBIGPlanet 1 and 2 for Christmas one day and completely fell in love with Clive Handforth. We aren't talking about Clive, though. We're talking about AVALON FUCKING CENTRIFUGE, BAYBEEEEE!!!!! I was OBSESSED with Avalon. OBSESSED. LITERALLY OBSESSED. If ita bags were popular in the West during this time of my life, none of you would be safe around me. I was absolutely in love with that hairy, ginger, peepaw. He's an ass, he's a funny ass, but I couldn't resist him! My online alias for the longest time was "Mrs. Lampy Centrifuge". My PSN was lampyboi6 at the time, as I was a DHMIS fan, but my Sackgirl at the time adopted the name "Lampy", because of it. Anyway, I was so obsessed with Avalon that at one point someone made a rant video about me LOLOLOL I miss that time, to be honest... We've covered the big guys of my childhood, so I wanna talk now about my current man, Thunderbird! I'll definitely be making a shrine page about him someday. Anyway, Thunderbird is a character from the mobile gacha game, "Tokyo Afterschool Summoners". I am not a fan of this game anymore. It bored me. I stuck around for Thunderbird, though, because he is so important to me. Thunderbird is a cowboy superhero with the power of being a literal dreamcatcher. He stops you from having nightmares. It's fucking awesome. But, his guise outside of superheroing, is being a bartender! Thunderbird, or as I call him, "Thundie", is one of the most compassionate fellas I have ever seen! He is very kind, nurturing, and just- OOOUGGHHH, he's so cute and smart... Our two-year (2) anniversary is on the 24th of September, which is coming up soon. Honestly, Thundie's one of the more reasonable characters in TAS, as he doesn't engage in weird stuff with the visibly teenage-looking protagonist(s) in the game. As I mentioned before, though, I am not a fan of this game. In fact, I don't even associate Thunderbird with his source material! I incorporated him into my mascot/sona's lore and, they live together in a rural country town, and they are very happy together, OK? Hooray! That is all! I have many more characters that I fawn over, but these characters were the most significant in my life. Self-shipping, for me, is a very nice form of escapism, and it makes me happy. It has been important to my life, and I wouldn't be where I am now if I didn't fall for that one nerd who totally exists. I do not think self shipping is cringey, I think it is awesome. I think we should do whatever we want if it isn't hurting anyone. Go kiss that fictional fellow! Wahoo! P.S. Sorry if my writing style seems weird or AI-like, I am just autistic and this is how I talk in real life and online.

Feeling: Drained

Listening to: Monopoly - Danny Brown